Check Up Month Two

This week Alexis has her 11 week Gestational/17 week Birth check up. I am having some trouble with this phrase: "She should be". As in holding her head up, rolling over and what ever else she should be doing at three months. I think she should be letting her little body do what it wants to do. Even if it is not what she is "supposed" to be doing. We will see what the Dr. says she should be doing ;)

Alexis, no matter what you do mommy and daddy are very proud of you.

Alexis noticed her mobile. For the first time this week -

And found it hilarious.

She is also trying to sit up!

She has been trying this little trick for a couple of weeks now.

What is she NOT doing?

Rolling over. She has no interest - but she sure does love to snuggle. I'm glad she learned how to do that :)

Time

Today for the first time in a long time I am missing my time to read fun blogs, recipes, runnning and relaxing.

I am also missing this little potato........

Who wouldn't?

My love of Food

Fish Stick - this is my nick name since I was in 6th grade. I actually gave it to myself - I have it 21 years later and love it.

Tater Tot - that is what we called Alexis when she was in my tummy. Well, first it was Lima Bean and then Natalie dubbed her Tater Tot. Get it - Fish Sticks and Tater Tot? Jason is the Sauce....we are a happy fried family.

Bean - this is what I called Alexis after she was born and I still call her today

Potato or Sweet Potato - this is what I just started calling Alexis

Who knows what it will be next........She's just so yummy!

Jen. Weimer. Taylor.

I am thinking most if not all new moms go through this - Where did I go? Am I going to return? Who am I now?
Yes, I'm a wife and mother but inside, who am I?

Every day I feel as thought I am going through motions much like if I were a robot. Morning Motion - go to work; Afternoon Motion - pick up sweet Alexis Grace whom I miss so, so much during the day; Evening Motion - make sure Alexis is learning, make up for the time I was not able to be with her and make sure things are ready for tomorrow. Oh yea, try really hard not to be tired and irritated with everyone/thing except my sweet Alexis.

I used to be Single Jen Weimer or just Weimer. I loved this girl - she was a bit wild and really had no direction and felt lost most of the time. Still, I was okay with this - it meant I got to meet some really cool people that accepted me for the lost soul I was (who are still my friends) and make some of the best memories I will ever have.

Then I was Married Jen Weimer Taylor. I loved this girl even more - I had more confidence in myself and I married the best man ever. And once again I was blessed to meet someone who accepted me for me - the entire crazy, sometimes confused but 99% of the time know what I like and don't like person. This married girl understood where she was going most of the time. She loved her friends and loved running. That is all she needed - family, friends, running. She was lucky enough to like her job as well.

Now I am a mother - a wife and a mother. This is something I have wanted my entire life - I am someone who has known since she was six years old that being a wife and a mother is what I am supposed to be. Its what I wanted to be. I'm not supposed to be a career driven person - I don't care. I like work because it makes me feel apart of something and I feel like I can contribute to my families well being but I could leave it in a second. I love being married - especially to Jason. He makes me laugh like no other and I don't know anyone else in the world who could love me as much as he does.

Being a mom - this is so new. I am in love with being a mom and I love Alexis Grace so much I could have a bunch more! But this girl is lost. Again.
I have no issues about how I am raising my daughter or her future. I have nothing but positive thoughts about my daughter. Its me. I have lost myself. Or rather I can't find my new self. I am not confused about working and being a full time mom - its what I have to do right now. No big deal.
But is this new me going to be fun and are my friends going to accept this new me? Are they going to like the new not so wild me? Am I going to like her? I like to think I am going to have fun no matter what I do but I'm just not used to this new girl. I am sure I will embrace her sooner rather than later but in the mean time I am feeling a little lost. Kind of like walking in the dark. I'm bound to stumble on something that makes sense; I'm just not sure when.

I welcome this new girl and whatever she may bring.

My New Sundays

I might have failed a little at keeping a journal of my child's life so far but there is one (of many I think) where I excel. Cooking - my family is going to be well fed. Sunday I cooked for 4 and 1/2 hours! I made a spinach lasagna, pasta figoli, 2 meat loafs and a roast with a mushroom gravy. Why so much food? Since I am working full time and being a mom full time there is not much room for extra stuff during the week. Especially since Jason has a second job and works three nights a week. Good thing I love to cook. Its relaxing for me - well, the first two hours are. I'm pretty much over the last two.....

I hope I can keep this up - not the cooking for 4 hours on Sunday but cook at least one or two meals each Sunday. That way I can get our freezer filled with some variety!

LOVE

I am so in love with that Alexis Grace its ridiculous! She is getting so big and I just can't keep up. I had full intentions of keeping track of her growth by day, then I thought maybe per week which turned into every month.........and of course I have failed at all of those. Since I started back to work full time I have NO Time for anything. I get up or rather Alexis gets me up, I take her to Emily's house then I'm off to work. I pick Alexis up, hopefully go for a run or to the park, then get home to start Alexis's new routine: Bath, feed, play, sleep. Granted it does not go this smoothly - Bath is always great, Feed is usually great, Play is awesome but sleep.....hhmmm....sometimes sleep doesn't take place for hours. And then I want to sleep! I know, this will happen soon.

I can't wait until one day I will be working part time - then I won't feel like I am missing out on so much. I miss her so much during the day.

This was taken Sept 1st