December and January have been a little tough. I am hoping February brings a lot more sunshine and clearer thoughts. I started training for the ING 1/2 marathon last week. My schedule is below and I hope I am able to stay focused. I would like to run it in 2:10 - about a 10 minute mile; enough to feel good about my time but not enough to kill myself and completely change all of my regular habits. I joined a new running club www.crrclub.org and I am back on track with a regular running schedule.
Goal Weeks Total Mileage
1/28 - 20
2/24 - 24
2/11 - 23
2/18 - 27
2/25 - 24
3/10 - 21
3/17 - 15
3/24 - 10
3/30 - ING 1/2 !!!!
I made some other Goals for 2008 and hope I can keep at least 1/2 of them. I won't bore you with my work goals as those change throughout the year. But with my personal life I would like to volunteer at least two times in 2008 to help other people (I know some of you are saying, two times? what is that? I do that in a week). Well, you are better than I am - last year I helped with Habitat for Humanity once and I would like to add on each year.
With regard to my marriage I am going to try to have more patients, continue to work on communication, try to say more positive things and continue to work on thinking more positively.
With regard to our house I would like to finish painting the entire inside, organize all kitchen cabinets and tackle some of the other rooms. We would also like to start a family sometime this year but that goal will be kept a secret until we are ready to share.
Good luck keeping your goals for 2008!
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Friday, January 18, 2008
Moving On
It's been quite some time since the last blog but I have not wanted to write about our Miscarriage. We have been dealing with it for a while and I just want to get past it. I had D & C Surgery and all went well. The pre-surgery cocktail they give you is fantastic! Although I cried again as soon as I couldn't feel anything and then I was out. The only thing I remember is a tube being placed in my nose with cold, fresh, clean oxygen..............that was quite nice.
I had my two week post surgery check-up and that went well. The Dr. said we should not get pregnant until I have had two periods because every time you get pregnant you have a 15 to 20 percent chance to miscarry and if we don't wait the chance is grater. I am not mentally prepared to go through this again. It just sucks. Everyone has been so helpful and comforting and we truly appreciate it. Our friends and family have given us shoulders to cry on and space when we needed it. We couldn't be more lucky to have so many great people in our lives.
I am moving on as best as I can. I ran for the first time last Saturday at the river and this turned out to be very emotional. I was going to run three miles as I had not run in a few weeks and i like to start out slowly. I started out relaxed, listening to my music and enjoying the run. About 1/2 way into mile 1 A Cold Play song came on and I started to cry. Not sobbing like when I finished, but I was overwhelmed with sadness. Once I got myself together and came up on mile two I hit an incline where it was sun, sun, sunny and I felt great again. I picked up a little speed, basked in the sun and happy thoughts were all I had. I finished the run and felt great. I started to stretch and people watch as I usually do and noticed all of these families. Again, I was overwhelmed with emotion - not the kind you can keep in until you get home but the kind where I could not control myself and I was just crying. I cried all the way to my car, with red eyes and a runny nose. I had so many tears I almost ran into a car...........I ended up crying all of the way to Walmart (which is about a 15 minute drive). Once I talked to Jason I felt better but was a little embarrassed. I hope that does not happen again - the sadness I can handle but the sudden outburst is a little much.
As for this week - everything is going well and I am feeling much better. I am starting to feel "normal" again. Jason and I are going to finish painting the kitchen and 1/2 bath and we have dinner Friday and Sat with friends! I am looking forward to a great weekend.
I had my two week post surgery check-up and that went well. The Dr. said we should not get pregnant until I have had two periods because every time you get pregnant you have a 15 to 20 percent chance to miscarry and if we don't wait the chance is grater. I am not mentally prepared to go through this again. It just sucks. Everyone has been so helpful and comforting and we truly appreciate it. Our friends and family have given us shoulders to cry on and space when we needed it. We couldn't be more lucky to have so many great people in our lives.
I am moving on as best as I can. I ran for the first time last Saturday at the river and this turned out to be very emotional. I was going to run three miles as I had not run in a few weeks and i like to start out slowly. I started out relaxed, listening to my music and enjoying the run. About 1/2 way into mile 1 A Cold Play song came on and I started to cry. Not sobbing like when I finished, but I was overwhelmed with sadness. Once I got myself together and came up on mile two I hit an incline where it was sun, sun, sunny and I felt great again. I picked up a little speed, basked in the sun and happy thoughts were all I had. I finished the run and felt great. I started to stretch and people watch as I usually do and noticed all of these families. Again, I was overwhelmed with emotion - not the kind you can keep in until you get home but the kind where I could not control myself and I was just crying. I cried all the way to my car, with red eyes and a runny nose. I had so many tears I almost ran into a car...........I ended up crying all of the way to Walmart (which is about a 15 minute drive). Once I talked to Jason I felt better but was a little embarrassed. I hope that does not happen again - the sadness I can handle but the sudden outburst is a little much.
As for this week - everything is going well and I am feeling much better. I am starting to feel "normal" again. Jason and I are going to finish painting the kitchen and 1/2 bath and we have dinner Friday and Sat with friends! I am looking forward to a great weekend.
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